500 episodes listed below
A steady voice for the hard hour.
Before You Kill Yourself turns suicidal thoughts and emotional spirals into plain, survivable language. Leo Flowers moves from personal stories to practical reframes, treating pain as something to name, sit with, and carry differently.
PRESS PLAY
Before You Kill Yourself is a mental-health podcast about surviving the thoughts people often hide. It is direct about suicidality, but it does not turn pain into spectacle. Leo Flowers speaks in a warm solo mode, circling everyday situations until the emotional pattern underneath becomes visible. A replayed conflict becomes a question about interrupting rumination without suppressing emotion. Comparison becomes a distinction between turning life into a scoreboard and studying another person for useful information. Workplace anxiety becomes a lesson in structure, delegation, and being kind without surrendering authority. Touch starvation becomes a reminder that connection is physical as well as conversational. Family scapegoating becomes a way to talk about alienation, roles, myths, and the work of finding belonging outside a painful system. Grief is treated broadly, from the unexpected loss of a parent to the loss of identity, work, companionship, or a pet. The show often returns to shame. It names the fear of disappointing people, the habit of over-carrying responsibility, and the distorted belief that others would be better off without someone. Its advice is practical, but not brisk. Feelings are not treated like problems that must be solved immediately. They are named, allowed, made specific, and held until they can change. The pacing is loose and human, with repetition used to make a point land emotionally rather than merely logically. Book references, listener emails, personal memories, and daily routines all become material. The result is less like a polished wellness lecture and more like a steady voice sitting nearby during a hard hour. It is especially suited to listeners who need compassion without sentimentality and honesty without emotional distance. Again and again, the show points toward connection: a text, a walk, a coffee shop, a team, a safe person, another day.
Made for: For people living with suicidal thoughts, grief, anxiety, depression, shame, loneliness, or family alienation who want support that feels plainspoken and emotionally close. It also suits listeners who use reflective mental-health conversations as part of staying connected.
What sets it apart: The show turns crisis language into everyday examples, moving from towels, workplaces, newspapers, family roles, and old memories into practical emotional reframes. Its strength is the way it makes heavy thoughts feel nameable without making them feel final.
When the pain feels unbearable and we feel alone in our suffering this podcast will sit with you. Let's rediscover our purpose, reduce our pain and regain our sense of belonging. Join comedian Leo Flowers M.A. as he shares his own journey through suicidality, interviews guests with lived experiences and discusses with experts on how to escape the flames and create a life worth living.
At 4 a.m., Leo Flowers keeps you company until sunrise counts as a plan.
Press play if you want
Short reviews from the PlayNext desk, based on the episodes we processed.
A compassionate review of how shame can turn care for others into a story of personal disappearance.
Suicidal thinking is framed here through burdensomeness: Leo Flowers follows the belief that loved ones, friends, community, or the world would be better off without someone.
A clear look at how family roles get assigned, and how to step out of the one that hurts.
Leo Flowers traces family alienation to acceptance by naming the roles that can harden inside a household: too sensitive, always the problem, or the one who challenges the family myth.
A grounded take on turning upheaval into something usable.
Leo Flowers treats revamping as a way to stay engaged with life when things have shifted underfoot, not as a clean reset. He moves through the hard stuff quickly and plainly: losing a house, divorce, kids pulling away, debt, collectors, and leaning on old friends or parents…
Jonquilyn Hill chases one listener question per episode to the experts who can answer it.
Hard conversations, patiently held, with room to laugh.
Fearne Cotton interviews guests like Boy George and Bryony Gordon about mental health and identity.
Dr. Joy Harden Bradford pairs therapy insight with Black TV recaps, maternal health, and history.
Comedian Leo Flowers hosts a solo episode on revamping oneself during acute life crises.
Host Leo Flowers explores the psychological trap of comparison and proposes studying as a healthier alternative.
This episode explores how engaging in activities with both hands can help prevent suicide by shifting focus from obsessive thoughts to physical presence, promoting balance and mindfulness.
Leo Flowers examines why people may cry alone after pleasant conversations about sports, work, family, or neighborhood life.
Leo Flowers uses James Baldwin’s phrase “the miracle of love” to examine why emotional pain can feel permanent at 4 a.m.
Leo Flowers connects lost phones, unretrievable hard drives, and a shipwrecked laptop to grief over data and memories.
Leo Flowers explores the difference between interrupting distressing thoughts and suppressing emotions, sharing personal experiences with rumination and anxiety to clarify healthy emotional control.
This episode explores the harmful effects of comparing oneself to others, distinguishing it from studying others for information, and discusses how comparison leads to despair while studying can be beneficial.
This episode discusses how to navigate leadership roles in the workplace while dealing with anxiety and depression, based on a listener's email and the host's personal experience working at a youth facility.
Leo Flowers discusses the concept of being touch-starved, inspired by a newspaper article, and shares personal experiences with touch deprivation during his travels as a stand-up comedian.
The host announces a temporary hiatus from the podcast due to work travel, medical issues, and personal commitments, emphasizing sustainability and mental health while encouraging listeners to stay connected.
Leo Flowers examines the belief that friends, family, or the community would be better off without someone, drawing on his childhood fear that his mother would have an easier life without him.
Leo Flowers opens with alienation.
This episode discusses coping with the unexpected loss of a parent, using the example of Dallas Cowboys player Marshawn Neeland's suicide linked to his mother's death, and extends to other types of loss.
The host explores how balancing effort and ease in daily activities affects dopamine levels and addiction, using examples like cell phone use and cooking to discuss structuring a day for well-being.
This episode explores how engaging in activities with both hands can help prevent suicide by shifting focus from ruminating thoughts to physical presence, promoting balance and reducing tension.