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Sober Living with Millie Mackintosh

May 26, 2025·1 hr 11 min·3 clips

Millie Mackintosh publicly discloses for the first time that she is attracted to women and used alcohol to express it.

The friendship comes first. Kagi introduces Millie as a mother, author, entrepreneur, public figure, and one of her oldest friends, then names their Made in Chelsea history. They were best friends before the show, travelled together on their gap year, and Millie was the reason Kagi did it. That history changes the tone. Kagi is not asking about sobriety from across the room. She is remembering too. Millie speaks plainly about drinking: wild nights, lost memory, falling, blacking out, and hurting herself badly enough that the fear still has a grip on the story. Kagi stays with it. She wonders aloud whether alcohol reveals a hidden self or creates someone unrecognisable. The question does not get cleaned up, which is part of why the exchange works. It sits in the messy space around shame, inhibition, and the feelings people learn to push down. Millie also shares something more private. As a teenager, she says drinking made it possible for her to make out with women when she did not yet feel confident doing that sober. The admission lands softly. Host and guest talk through attention, validation, and how certain behaviour could be treated as entertainment for men while still carrying real desire. The episode does not flatten that into a lesson. Old partying stories become a way into confidence, honesty, and the cost of needing alcohol before some truths feel reachable. Kagi keeps reflecting rather than pressing. She holds the thread between memory, care, and two women looking back at their younger selves with more tenderness than certainty. Near the end, she turns back to listeners navigating sobriety, while also nodding to the Made in Chelsea audience who will recognise the shared history underneath it all.

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A long friendship gives reflections on drinking, sexuality, and self-understanding a warm, gentle frame.

Saturn Returns frames a candid talk about transition, memory, and self-understanding around a long friendship, which gives the episode an easy, unforced rhythm.

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You want a warm, intimate catch-up about old friends, sobriety, and the way drinking can blur identity.

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