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Fruit of Knowledge

December 7, 2022·41 min·3 clips

Jex Blackmore explains why she started calling herself a Satanist after church sermons made her feel like a demon.

A voice starts by refusing spectacle. This is deprogramming, not entertainment, and the room is asked to deal with bodies as they are: sexual, envious, curious, compassionate, selfish, and able to make worlds. Power arrives as the old enemy. Before that thought settles, the excerpt slips into a harder moral argument about sacrifice, obedience, and the horror of killing a child for God. The answer is blunt. Against the religious story handed down, the speaker finds the cleaner moral act in refusal, then follows that refusal toward Satanism. Memory muddies the turn. A father once pointed out a satanic church in central Ohio, with blacked out windows, black walls, signs, robes, and ceremony. It sounds theatrical, almost too easy an image. Another voice pulls that apart from non-theistic Satanism, where Satan is not a supernatural ruler but a metaphor for enlightenment and rebellion. Desire comes back to the body. The point is not that Satan tells anyone what to do. People act from their own wanting, their own appetite, their own choices. That matters here. The episode sits in the messy place where religious fear, moral independence, and ordinary impulse are hard to separate. Its warmth has a bite to it. The speaker is not asking to be excused or applauded, only heard while drawing a hard line around autonomy. Then the spell breaks. Odoo, another podcast, final credits, Patreon thanks, music information, and an insurance spot all cut in from the outside. The testimony is still the stranger thing. What stays behind is the claim that being human is natural, powerful, and worth embracing without permission from church, devil, or crowd.

As heard by us

A slow, unsettling confession about shame, rebellion, and what it means to call yourself human.

This episode reads as a meditation on shame, power, and the body, with a speaker who treats Satanism less as provocation than as a way to name human appetite.

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For when you want rebellion explained as a private moral reckoning.

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